Still sad

I'm still feeling really sad.  I've been sad all day.  The new OBGYN can't get me in until Jan 21.  I find this kind of crazy.  Is it going to be a two month wait every time I try to get in there?  This makes me very sad because I can't go through another cycle in this much pain.  There has to be somethng they can do.  I hope the new RE doesn't have a waiting list that long.  Who knows....   I just feel yucky and sad today.