Still sad

I'm still feeling really sad.  I've been sad all day.  The new OBGYN can't get me in until Jan 21.  I find this kind of crazy.  Is it going to be a two month wait every time I try to get in there?  This makes me very sad because I can't go through another cycle in this much pain.  There has to be somethng they can do.  I hope the new RE doesn't have a waiting list that long.  Who knows....   I just feel yucky and sad today.

sad, sad, sad.....

I really sad today.  I had a good doctor's appt today.  I got a referral for a new RE and OBGYN.  I also got my referral for my feet and back renewed so I can go this time.  When I was at the doctor's appt today I got a pregnancy test and a BIG FAT NO!!!!!  The real reason I sad is because another TWO friends of mine posted that they we're "expecting" today.  That's the forth or fifth this month. AWESOME!!!!  Why am I so bitter?  Why can't I just be happy for my friends?  I try really hard.   I think about all the things that I am thankful for having, and try not to be ungrateful.

I want to say Happy 1st Birthday to Andrew Edward Mitchell.  This is my friend Lindsey's son over at Drew Needs Rest.  We really wish you could be here to celebrate with your sweet mom.

I also wanted to say Happy 2nd Birthday to my nephew Aiden.

Oh one last thing.  Meg at In this wonderful life is hosting a wonderful giveaway.  She is giving away a $25 gift cert from The Delta Girl.  These frames are so beautiful, y'all.  I really hope I win one.  I really love these Christmas prints and the red one with the white polka dots.

New Doctor

Well I have another doctor's appt tomorrow.  It's to get a new referral for a new (and hopeful better doctor.) I'm sure it will go well.  I'm pretty sure the second round of Clomid did NOT work, but I won't know for a few more days.  I'm trying not to be such a downer but it gets harder every month.  It doesn't help when everybody around me is getting pregnant.  I get sick to my stomach every time I hear "I'm pregnant" or " We're expecting!!!!!!"  You got to love all the exclamation points behind it to.  Yuck listen to me.

I fully intend to put pictures on here but my camera lens is broken.  I'm also really new this blogging thing so I haven't really figured it all out yet.  I want this blog to be more then just a journey to get pregnant.  Once I get a new lens for my camera I can add things to it.  I want to add some of the crafts and thing that I work on too.

I hope everybody had a great Thanksgiving!

Back on....

So after a lot of crying, frustration, talking to Tricare, and arguing with the billing office at the doctor's office we have decided to change doctor's.  I knew that I was right about what should be covered and what should not be covered.  I was just not willing to pay for things I have coverage for.  I also don't want to go to a doctor who is not willing to go out of their way for me.  So we are going to see another doctor.  I have taking Clomid again this month,  I won't be monitored, but I also have my shot of Ovidrel.  The only problem is I don't know how big my follicles are or if they are ready to be released, but I going to take it tomorrow.  It's along the same time line that I took it last month and I'm using ovulation test to see.  I hope this works so that I don't have to go through the IUI's and IVF's.  I'm praying.  I'll keep everybody updated on how it's going.

Happy Veteran's Day

  I wanted to take time today to say Happy Veteran's Day to my dear husband.   Today is a day to remember all the veterans past, present, and future.  Most importantly those who made the ultimate sacrifice.  I also want to say Happy 235th Birthday Marines!  Yesterday was the Marine Corp birthday.  Here are some pictures of my veteran.

(While he was in Afghanistan.)

(The morning he left with Mollie and Dixie.)

Remember if you see a veteran today go up to them and thank them for their service.  

A bump in the road

Well the first, and possibly the last, round of clomid didn't work.  We've also hit a bump in the road.   I went in for an ultrasound just to make sure that I wasn't pregnant and they told me that this would be the last appointment that Tri-care would cover.  So where do we go now?  Do we keep trying the Clomid with the feeling that I have endometriosis and the Clomid won't really work because of it? I don't know what to do. I am going to into the Tri-care office on Monday to see if there's anything else that we can do and why they won't cover my appointments just because I've started taking Clomid.  Maybe I  misunderstood what they said they would cover but this doesn't make any sense to me.  I just don't know what we're going to do.   I'm looking for a job but we need to pay some bills down so we can buy a house when we move to FL.  We need to sale the house that we own.  I am just beside myself right now.  I'm feeling pretty hopeless right now.  I hope I can get something done on Monday.  I'm also hoping that there was some kind of miscoding done and they will cover my appointments and and ultrasounds and we'll pay for the meds and treatments.

Still Waiting.....

I'm still waiting to see if AF comes or not.  I have a bad feeling that it will.  BOO!!!  I just feel pretty yucky today.  I guess only time will tell.  I have to say I'm pretty disappointed even though I knew it probably not work the first time.  I think I may have gotten my hopes up a little.  I'm just exhausted of trying, and hoping, and wishing, and praying.  I know it will happen when it's suppose to but I'm really tired.  Part of the reason I'm so frustrated is because when we finally start to get some headway we have to move. We'll be moving soon and I hope it will happen before we leave so I don't have to start all over.  I guess we'll find out on Friday.  Time seems to be ticking by so slow.